~Daski

So.

My SAI trial runs out REALLY soon and my ancient photoshop finally went extinct so you will NOT be seeing any more digital art from me for a LONG while, that is, unless, =kirio-13 will let me use her CS2 disk, and that probably wont work on my computer D|

so. D|| digital art for me.

i've been reading a couple books for my AP summer reading assignment. right now i'm reading The Life of Pi.
(oh quick that reminds me. D| i'm gonna need to borrow your laptop sometime next month, meri. i dont have Word and i need to write a few papers. hell if you're using your laptop during the summer for writing.)
i cant say i dont like it, cuz the writing is done so well that you feel the character's fear, feel what he's going though. i DONT like the fact that he delves into such detail about his love of Hinduism, Christianity, and Muslim. =.= for me who just doesnt believe in religion, its not fun.
he does make some great points, and i got a good laugh out of how ridiculous he made himself sound when he started exploring other religions, so its not all a waste. i did find myself skimming over a few pages though.

i read The Curious Case of the Dog in the Night-Time before i started the Life of Pi. i still have yet to get How to Read Literature Like a Professor. X3 i like the name so im kinda excited to read that one.
the dog one gave me SUCH a headache reading it @.@ its written in the point-of-view of an autistic british 15 year old, and the autism reaaaallly shows through the writing, so it gets difficult to read and understand. it really supports my theory that autistic persons' minds work on a different level than non-autistic peoples.




.....

as a pause...

i hate the days my mom is off...

right now...

shes talking about a game night...


and how it'll be "so fun you'll want to invite all your friends"


... kill me now.




AAAAANNNYY waaay...

so yeah, i would recomment the Curious Case of the Dog in the Night-Time, that is if you have a strong mind and can easily make sense of things. i DO NOT |D recommend reading the whole thing in a few hours. even if you have a strong mind and are british-english speaking, it still hurts like hell to try and make out what hes trying to say |D

=.= so, besides reading that, i've noticed that i've been watching the SyFy channel alot (yes, syfy. they changed it.) lately. im not sure why, but none of the other channels that i watch have anything good on D| i NEVER see spongebob on anymore, discovery channel has nothing but Deadliest Catch on, and animal planet usually has something like Planet Earth, which i've seen a bazillion times over, on.
i have no new games, all my reading time is given to AP reading, i hardly draw anymore CUZ of the AP reading, AND i have no CG programs =.= yay. i didnt get to go to Summer Fest to see Shiny Toy Guns, then =kirio-13 went traitor on me and went to SF anyway, my mom promised to take me to the CD store and shot that down. the only good thing i got to do lately is that ~NyraXerz took me to the zoo.
then ~Titoalba has her bf over for the weekend so like hell she's online. DDX she left me all alone with my crazy ass mother and her "harry potter weekend"
you all dont know how BADLY i want to stab hp and ALL people associated with it right now.

the thing i HAVE been doing lately, is coming up with more for my Vampire story, which many of you've seen me updating with outlines for characters, and coming up with a story about my persona's pit bull, Harper. i was told a couple times that i should make a story about his past. i fashioned him after a possible pit bull from the Bad Newz Kennels, Michael Vick's kennels, after the new report had come out. friends of mine thought it would be interesting to get into that background, so i decided to do it. i've heard a lot about dog fights and what happens in and around and in preparation for them (i watch too much Animal Cops) and i guess i should do a little bit of online research before i really settle into writing.

mom's informed me that marie and marissa are coming up to visit. to those of you who are veterans and know what that means; yah. im dead.
to those of you who not know: marissa is a "friend" of mine i've known since she was for, i 8. right now, she's going on ....14? she's 3 years younger than me, more like 4 since her bday is in dec. aanyway, she was an annoying little child that i wished to never have met. now that she's getting into the teenage years, we get along more, but we mostly see one another once a year, twice or three times if something comes up. last time she was up wasnt too bad. hopefully this time wont either.

so yeah. XD long journal. in a comment if you read all that. and thats what's been going on here <3

6/27 To Be Like Me

Luroke tried his hardest to stay out of sight when he returned home, even using his powers of teleportation to bypass the most likely areas his twin would be.

A few days before, on their birthday no less, Iykzu had gotten extremely mad at Luroke, blowing up in his face and overall just having a complete meltdown. News arrived to him foreboding, saying Iykzu had still not calmed down about it. This news had come to him from Ekko, Iykzu's mate. She was very worried about him, for he'd been very dominant as of late, which was completely opposite of what he normally was..

He feared what his brother could dish out. Bisexual or not, Iykzu was still a god, and still a male, and still a Destructor. He was just as powerful as any other of their brothers, even if it were hidden under his immature act and girlishness.

Luroke unfortunately ran into him in the basement living room. Even before he'd noticed his twin, Iykzu's body posture was much different than normal: rigid, tense, and aggressive, even as he sat still on the couch, watching tv. His ear flicked and he turned his head, murderous eyes locking onto his twin's. He stood and growled, his lean but muscular and toned figure leaned threatening toward his mirror's untrained body.

Luroke took a fearful step back. He'd never seen his brother like this, and it was genuinely terrifying. "Iykzu.. Please, calm down. I feel really bad about this and I want to talk this through with you.."

Iykzu bared his fangs. "Talk?? NOW you want to talk?!? Do you know how many times I've tried talking to you?? HAH. It went in one ear and out the other with you! Just right on over your head! You never cared with what I had to say, so why should I care now??? HUH?!?" He took a threatening step forward.

Luroke raised his hands in surrender. "Iykzu, I know I've done wrong this year of our lives, but I understand that now... I want to repent for what I've done to you, and I know now what I'd been doing had been hurting you, and know I know how hard it'd been hurting you..."

Iykzu growled more fiercely. "You don't know the pain I've been through! You prayed upon my weakness and cut me up into tiny pieces, Luroke!! Your own brother!"

"Iykzu, I--"

The angry brother shot forward and snatched Luroke's glasses off his face, smashing them with his rage in his fist, the glass slicing open his palm. He hardly felt it. "There! I've gotten rid of your contacts too!!

"How does it feel to have your weakness taken advantage of?? Huh!?" He growled viciously, blood dripping onto the carpet under their feet.

Luroke struggled to see his brother. "Iykzu!"

"Imagine this, only I'd snatch them every day, for at least an hour a day, for all our lives!" He hissed. "That wouldn't even cover my pain.

"Tell me.! How does it feel?? How does it feel to know that your own twin hates you so much as to take advantage of your one and most prominent weakness?? Huh???

"You're not my twin. You're just my ass of a brother who'd rather have a clone of himself than try and listen to what his twin is saying. I don't care if Nor says that our DNA is 99.2% the same, WE AREN'T.! I'm different than you, and you'd better damned accept that or else!! You best start respecting me for who I am and not what you want me to be!!"

Luroke rolled his ears back into a submissive position.

Iykzu wasn't done though. Oh hell no.

"Think you're so flipping tough, you do.! Just because you're straight doesn't mean you're any better than I am.! If either of us here is the better, I'd say I AM. I go out and risk my life everyday because it's what I enjoy, with who I enjoy, but you just sit here on your ass day in and day out, doing nothin else but wait for that day that you get the go-ahead to fuck your little girl. And that's all you live for. Pretty pathetic if you as anyone.

So don't be saying that you're any better than I am just because I like a dick up my ass!"

Luroke cringed at his bluntness.

"Sickens you, don't it?? DEAL WITH IT. I've been dealing with your whiny ass for all our lives and that takes a pretty strong stomach right there!

"Pain ain't nothing new to me, my own twin causes me so much more that it's getting to that I can't stand it anymore!!!"

He smacked Luroke in the side of the head. Luroke flinched and raised his arms above his head. "Iykzu!! Wtf--?!?"

Iykzu smacked him again. "HURT LUROKE. I want you to feel the pain you've caused me!!

"Hurt!!!! I want you to cry like I have!! Hurt!! Cry damn you....!!!"

This time, the smack was light. Luroke could hear tears in Iykzu's voice. His ears drooped and he stepped cautiously toward his brother, gingerly wrapping his arms around Iykzu's torso. He was nearly knocked over when Iykzu leapt at him, wrapping his arms around Luroke's neck and burying his face in his twin's shirt, crying.

Luroke held his brother close, nuzzling his hair gently. After a good while, Iykzu hugged him tight.

"Im sorry, Iykzu..." was all Luroke could say.

He responded quietly, speaking muffled and with a thick voice. "I'm sorry I broke your glasses..."

Luroke put on a soft smile and softly stroked Iykzu's hair. "It's alright, Iykz.. I understand that you were mad..."

Iykzu pulled his head from his brother's chest, taking a hand back to wipe his eyes. "I'll help you around the house and stuff.. seeing how blind you are without them..."

Luroke nuzzled him softly. "You don't have to.. I owe you too much already.."

Iykzu pulled away from his touch. "No I broke them... I'm gonna help you.. What are twins for..?"